Do you honestly think I want to be this way? I really don't. You say I can control this, I'm trying. I've tried. Can't you see? Don't tell me it's okay when you don't think it is. I can hear it in your voice. Even if you say it's okay, your actions tell me otherwise. I know you are hurting but am I not? I'm the one experiencing this, I already feel horrid enough.
I hate it when I finally have the courage to talk about how I feel but in the end the person gives crude, insensitive remarks which just makes me want to dig deeper and deeper into this hole I have made. Sometimes I just want you to listen. Not judge me. You even want me to admit something you said about me which I totally do not think is true. It partially is, but not totally. Even if I'm not comfortable in a situation, I TRY. I TRY my best to be comfortable in that situation. And you make it sound like I don't even try. How wrong I was to think I could let you hear my thoughts. A very good friend of mine said this, "Nobody will ever understand anyone else other than themselves. They might have similar experiences but different people feel differently." Yes, I know. But even if they don't understand, they could just be there for you. They don't have to say anything to comfort you, just support you. Even if it's just a hug, that's good enough for me. Actions speak louder than words..
Sorry for this emo rant post. I've been in a really bad mood lately and the people around me aren't really making me feel any better. I should probably go grab some ice cream..
Do you honestly think I want to be this way? I really don't. You say I can control this, I'm trying. I've tried. Can't you see? Don't tell me it's okay when you don't think it is. I can hear it in your voice. Even if you say it's okay, your actions tell me otherwise. I know you are hurting but am I not? I'm the one experiencing this, I already feel horrid enough.
I hate it when I finally have the courage to talk about how I feel but in the end the person gives crude, insensitive remarks which just makes me want to dig deeper and deeper into this hole I have made. Sometimes I just want you to listen. Not judge me. You even want me to admit something you said about me which I totally do not think is true. It partially is, but not totally. Even if I'm not comfortable in a situation, I TRY. I TRY my best to be comfortable in that situation. And you make it sound like I don't even try. How wrong I was to think I could let you hear my thoughts. A very good friend of mine said this, "Nobody will ever understand anyone else other than themselves. They might have similar experiences but different people feel differently." Yes, I know. But even if they don't understand, they could just be there for you. They don't have to say anything to comfort you, just support you. Even if it's just a hug, that's good enough for me. Actions speak louder than words..
Sorry for this emo rant post. I've been in a really bad mood lately and the people around me aren't really making me feel any better. I should probably go grab some ice cream..
“To put away aimlessness and weakness, and to begin to think with purpose, is to enter the ranks of those strong ones who only recognize failure as one of the pathways to attainment; who make all conditions serve them, and who think strongly, attempt fearlessly, and accomplish masterfully.”
- James Allen Quotes
Sometimes I wonder how people see me and what they think of me. It scares me a bit, honestly. I am sure though, that what they think of me,
what they think my life is, is a complete misperception. I have always tried to show myself as a carefree person, as someone who wont get bothered
because of public judgements. I am sure my friend and family think there is nothing going wrong in my life, that I do not worry enough, that
I am always happy. And I am sure they probably somewhat hate me for it because, lets admit it, there is nothing worse than seeing someone
who is life seems so perfect while yours is a complete mess. Truth is, I have become an expert at pretending. I think we are all experts
or at least we are getting there.
my sunshine
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: Emz, 22 June.